blinded by DESPAIR ]]

[lonelylove :D]

d i s k k o.

foreboding!
obnixious!
deranged!

He couldn't see.

Not in the sense you might think. This cat was not blind, nor had his eyes been covered literally. No, he was blinded by despair. The scenes he had witnessed the day before had left his heart torn and his brain in shambles. He had watched them die and he didn't do anything about it precisely because he couldn't have. Diskko had no battle skills, and if he had tried to interfere, he would have died like they had. Well, he hadn't interfered, and he almost died. His wounds were still bleeding, but at a sluggish pace. Every so often Diskko had to stop and lick them. He was grateful that Jasminestar had come to his rescue... But then she had been killed. Did that make it his fault?

Diskko shook his head, to sad to think about it further. He was blinded by despair, and deaf except to Jasminestar's weak voice in his head... Please go to Serenityclan and tell them what has happened... At this, Diskko braked to a stop, next to a peaceful-looking stream. Something in his brain registered that this stream would be good for washing his wounds, but the toom pushed the thought aside. Diskko sat down and slouched his shoulders so he was look at his paws. Tears trickled down his cheeks as the scene replayed itself in his head.

Why? WHY?

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[Ice]

^{A small silver figure stood by a bigger tom. The small femme looked up at the black and white tom next to her. 'Ice can you smell anything?'}[/color] The silver femme was teaching the Kittypet how to scent things. 'Yes, I smell something... but it smells like another cat, not prey?'[/color] Ice Lifted his nose back into the air to folow it. Lonelykit followed close behind.

Ice reached the end of the scent, and he was standing infront of a tom hunched over the acid stream. 'Is everything ok? I'm Ice, by the way....'[/color] Lonelykit watched Ice following the scent for the longest time until he stoped. 'Are you ok?'[/color] Lonelykit stepped up to where the tom was hunched over the stream...[/sup]

[lonelylove :D]

d i s k k o.

foreboding!
obnixious!
deranged!

Diskko looked up from his creamy-chocolate paws to see a little kit and a big tom standing next to each other. He sniffed and quickly wiped away his tears with his paws. He blinked a couple of times to clear the ugly scene from his eyes. He took a deep breath, and attempted to keep his composure. He-hello, He croaked. He cleared his throat, but it would not obey. I'm... Diskko. As soon as he spoke, a feeling of suspicion wormed its way into the tom's brain. What if... What if they were spies?

His pupils dialated as they quickly moved from the tom called Ice and the kit. Wha...What do you what? His breathing became shallow as horrible what ifs filled his head. What if they're spies? What if, right after this, they run to their rogue friends and tell them to come attack me? His lips trembled. Oh no. He was gonna cry again. A tear slowing dribbled down his cheek. Please! Please don't make them come back! They...killed her! He began to sob again.

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[Ice]

^{Lonelykit spoke up, 'we were just passing by... and we saw you here.'}[/color] Ice watched Diskko intently. 'I'm Lonelykit, I used to be evil but then I met this kittypet...'[/color] Lonelykit pushed Ice with a playful paw. When Diskko freaked out the two cats looked at eachother for about a second then looked back at the tom. 'Make who come back??'[/color] 'Killed who???'[/color] Both of them asked worriedly, and confused. This cat must have been attacked, but by who and why? Lonelykit watched the tom sob.[/sup]

[lonelylove :D]

d i s k k o.

foreboding!
obnixous!
deranged!

Diskko blinked his tears away once more, and turned to look at both of them. Both of them looked confused and concerned. No, they could not be spies of any sort. A sharp voice sounded in his head. This is no time to break down! Pull your together! Diskko knew the voice was right, so he quickly wiped tears away and stood up, nice and tall. Umm, nothing. Look, I'd rather not talk about it. Hopefully this would keep them away from the subject, at least for a while. Not only was it an excuse, it was sort of the truth.

He looked at the little silver-colored kit. She didn't look capable of commiting any evil crimes. What do you, evil? His voice was a bit edgy and dry, but it was all he could offer. He looked down at his wounds. They had started to bleed again. He hastily licked the blood away, trying to pass them off as no big deal. Even though they kind of were.

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[Ice]

^{Lonelykit watched the tom straighten himself up. 'thats fair I guess whatever happened must of been bad...'}[/color] Lonelykit's voice rasied a pitch, so she sounded like a mouse. Ice couldn't speak so he just looked at his paws. When Diskko asked about Lonelykit she looked shocked... 'What I mean is even though I look small I can kill cats like you like your a mouse, but I stopped being that way. Thank Ice, if I never met him you wouldn't be alive right now...'[/color] Lonelykit hated to talk about herself like she was still evil. 'It was only when I became a rogue I turned evil. After my mother died I left my clan, I taught myself everything needed to be known...[/color] Lonelykit choked when she talked about her mother.

Ice watched Lonelykit explain herself. 'Enough about you Lonelykit, I want to know more about you Diskko... Where did you come from and how did you get those wounds?[/color] Ice couldn't help asking about the bloody things on Diskko's body. Lonelykit looked up at Ice with what could have looked like a thankful glance[/sup]

[all out JINX ♥]

Rust

Orange fur heaved in and out as the fat silky male ran as fast as he could, a pair of massive mutts had chased the young tom until the twolegged house's stopped. His flame coloured tail ached with a deep cut from a group of rogues, he was deeply terrified of them and every rogue to him was Crowstone the dark rogue with vicious violet irises. He had kept running and didn't want to stop even though they had stopped chasing him a long time ago. The young male looked behind him to see that the Crowstone's had stopped chasing him, he swiped his head around to the front to see a deadly sizzling river. He stopped at the edge just before it dipped down into the burning water, the amber kitty-pet almost fell exhausted but he decided to follow the river in a very slow movement. His head shot up in an instant, 1 because he heard voice's in front of him and 2 because he just relieved he was lost.

The small male gathered his little courage and energy left and bravely walked out from behind some reeds to find a bleeding male and 2 evil looking cats standing around him. The image of Crowstone quickly filled the slots of both cats as he heard the word evil from the scratched up body. 'Are you okey? Get away you rogues! Get away!' His scared eyes closed as he ran to the bloody male, after he heard the kit and the male's voice's and how they spoke to the loner he knew they weren't evil. 'I'm sorry, who is everyone?' Rust's irises glowed with curiosity, the kind you would find in a clueless kitty-pet.

[lonelylove :D]

d i s k k o.

foreboding!
obnixous!
deranged!

Diskko couldn't help but feel sorry for the little kit. He still couldn't imagine her killing anyone, but anything was possible. Her life had been worse than his. He had made the choice to live outside, but it was only because he knew in his heart he had not been fit for the life of a kittypet.

Before he could express his sorrow for Lonelykit, Ice cut in and began asking him question. Diskko flinched at the unexpected subject change. He had no desire to tell these practically-strangers about his life. But Lonelykit opened up, and Diskko felt he should offer something in return. He was not a taker.

Diskko sighed and began to speak. I was born a kittypet. I'm not sure who my parents or siblings are. My twoleg bought me and took me to her den, where I grow up with another cat named Ferdinard. He was sorrowful when he spoke of his old friend. He missed him so much. He was like the father I never had. Before he could continue on, a rusty-colored kittypet bounded forward and joined their group. Another stranger? Diskko winced as the kittypet came close to him. He shivered as he thought of the last cat who had touched him.

He knew that these two cats he had met first were not evil, as Rust proclaimed. They are not evil. I was just speaking to them. My name's Diskko. What's yours? He expected Lonelykit and Ice to introduce themselves.

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[Ice]

<sup>Lonelykit looked at Diskko as he explained himself. Her thought's went crazy in her head. Ice thought about how much Diskko reminded him about himself. He thought is was kind of scary about how the two kittypets could be so alike but yet so different. Right then a Rusty colored tom came up to them.

Lonelykit growled at new tom joinging them. 'You better watch what you say to or about me kittypet!</sup>[/color] Lonelykit hated being called a Rogue, even though she was one. Ice's eyes widened. 'Please Lonelykit, calm down. He only thought we were evil. Please I don't want this to turn into a blood bath.'[/color] Ice's voice was smooth and soft. He mean't what he said about the blood bath. Lonelykit's temper died a little but she still hissed, I'm Lonelykit, you better watch yourself!'[/color] Ice rolled his eyes. 'Don't mind Lonelykit, she means no harm.[/color] He gave the kit a warning glare then intorduced himself. 'I'm Ice.... I used to be a kittypet but I left that life. Now I wander the land with her...'[/color][/sup]

[all out JINX ♥]

Rust

Rust smiled at Diskko in greeting as he gave the male some space, he turned his flame-coloured head towards the other 2 cats. His smile quickly disappeared as Lonelykit threatened him, he nodded his head gratefully towards Ice in thanks, 'I'm Rust, I was just chased by mutts and Crowstone's... I mean rogue's so now I'm beat' His mind finally processed something he had missed in his mine, his rust coloured head snapped towards the silver-coloured kit. 'Are you a clanner?' Rust stared at Lonelykit with intense eyes wondering why her name was like a clanners. He then remembered the injured Diskko, the rusty male quickly examined the loners wounds. 'You should go find a cat that knows herbs, it will come in handy with your cuts,' Rust stated the obvious to Diskko, he only did because he thought the male thought his wounds weren't bad.

[Ice]

^{Lonelykit watched the kittypet intentsley. When he introduced himself Lonleykit laughed under her breath. 'I used to! and I never will be again! I will kill every clanner there is before I ever go back to those mouse-brains!!!!!'}[/color] Lonelykit hissed. Ice whinned, 'You shouldn't have asked that! Now you go the little thing worked up...'[/color] Ice smiled a small smirk. Lonelykit glared at Ice for a while. 'Do you know where we can find cobwebs? we need to stop the bleeding. Also we need marigold...'[/color] [/sup]
//sorry I just lost muse >.<

[lonelylove :D]

d i s k k o.

foreboding!
obnixious!
deranged!

Diskko let out a weak growl. He had no idea what Rust meant by herbs and such, but it was something to do with his wounds. They're fine! He snapped. He licked them again, and walked over the stream. Carefully, he lay down on the bank and slow stuck his paw in. He was surprised to find that the current was very strong. His paw wet now, he sat up and dabbed water on his wound. It stung a little, and he let out a small yelp. The water didn't help much, but at least the wounds were cleaner. See? But it wasn't much.

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[Ice]

^{Lonelykit let out a little laugh as Diskko thought he was ok. 'Calm down Diskko, oyur going to get your cuts infected.'}[/color] Lonelykit looked up at Ice. 'Wait here with them I will go try to find the herbs needed. Oh and Diskko herbs don't hurt as bad as the water.[/color] Lonelykit smiled a smartalic smile then padded off. Ice just stood there looking at the two other kittypets. 'Are you guys ever going to go back to being a kittypet? or are you going to stay here?'[/color] Ice knew since Lonelykit left they could talk about life as a kittypet...[/sup]

[&&R.A.V.E.N :3]

avala

[/color] She mewed gently, giving a small smile. "My name is Avala, by the way. I'm new around here, trying to find a companion." Her voice was soft, gently, and told the truth, through and through. She smiled up at Diskko, her eyes moving towards Lonelykit, Ice and Rust.
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[lonelylove :D]

d i s k k o.

foreboding!
obnixious!
deranged!

Diskko only blinked when Lonelykit padded off to find herbs. Why herbs would help, Diskko wasn't sure. But... Diskko recalled when Jasminestar told him of her medicine cat. Did she use herbs, too? Yes, she did, His memory confirmed. So then maybe they would.

To Ice's question, he laughed. Go back? Why? I had nothing for me there anymore. More than anything, I love nature. And how can I appreciate nature if I'm cooped up inside all day? I'd have this any day. Diskko managed to smile a little.

Then, out of nowhere, another cat slipped out from behind him. Diskko flinched again. Geez, how many cats came this way? Diskko counted four now. This stream must be a busy place.

When the new cat, named Avala, offered her services, Diskko shook his head politely. Lonelykit is already looking for herbs, but thanks. He managed a stiff smile, then attempted to shuffle away a little bit. My name is Diskko. I'm new here, too.

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[KURI. (happy birfday to me :D)]

"My, what do we have here? A makeshift gathering?"

Calanthe was ever too prone to two things: appearing out of nowhere and using Clan terms lightly. Not that it really mattered. The older she-cat let her eyes wander from cat to cat, each one at least a season or more younger than her. She didn't care about ages, though. They were rather useless, unless you were talking to, say, a kit. Then you wouldn't talk in the same tone as if you were talking to a full-grown tomcat, now would you? After her failure with the group of other cats at Sabretooth Rock - she hadn't even gotten all their names, for heaven's sake - she had gone back to wandering. And what a shame it had been, she would have liked to stay at the Rock. "So, you two are new to the rogue life? That's always hard," she wasn't one hundred percent sure she should look like she was on their side just yet. The world was a war game to Calanthe, one false move and the whole forest is against you.

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[lonelylove :D]

ooc Uhh, what two Kuri? lmao :]

[KURI. (happy birfday to me :D)]

_** Diskko and Avala, silly. :]

[lonelylove :D]

d i s k k o.

foreboding!
obnixous!
deranged!

Diskko twisted around, and he was face-to-face with yet another cat. This time, it was a she-cat with shifty-looking eyes. Diskko stared at her face. She was sneaky, but unsure. Diskko frowned his silken eyebrows at her words. I am not new to this life. I have been wandering for many moons now. I am only new to this place. I wandered in a forest far from here. He blinked. So many cats here. I wished I had savored my days of solitude more. His gaze wandered for a moment, before looking back at the new she-cat. What's your name?

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[Ice]

^{Ice watched the two new cats. He had no expression showing on his face. Before he could ask the newest cat to join the small group of cats their name Diskko beat him to it. Ice was starting to feel a little uncomfortable with all the cats around. He moved his black and white pelt uncomfortable every time he moved. The tom wrapped his tail around his paw wishing Lonleykit would come back with the needed herbs, because the sooner she helped Diskko the sooner they could go wander by themself. Ice was watching the direction that Lonelykit had gone by, it also made Ice uneasy that the small silver cat went alone. Even if she thought she could take care of herself...}

[KURI. (happy birfday to me :D)]

Calanthe blinked. "Well then, excuse my rudeness, young one," the ginger she-cat meowed, a sharp edge to her voice, warning the tomcat not to go any further. She licked a paw, letting her claws slide out as she did so. Showing their tattered but shining surface was a game of hers. The former SerenityClanner flicked an ear at Diskko and told him her name. "Calanthe. Now, your name?" she glanced at the other cat, a pathetic-looking thing that shifted and twitched, and she smiled. "You too, dear. What do you call yourself?" remembering the little tabby that she had seen run off earlier (Calanthe liked to observe a scene for a long time before emerging, it seemed), she added, "And what about that little silver fellow who was tagging along with you?" behind her kindness was a caution that she expertly hid. She couldn't trust these cats entirely. If she was going to be aquainted to them, she'd find some way to make them useful to her.

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[lonelylove :D]

d i s k k o.

foreboding!
obnixious!
deranged!

Diskko blinked. This cat was too guarded, too cautious. But why? All of these cats seemed nice enough. They wouldn't hurt anyone, unless they had to, of course. Lonelykit did have a history, but... She had given it up, hadn't she? And the she-cat wouldn't know about it anyway.

She didn't seem to understand his tone. I wasn't suggesting that you were rude. I was just correcting you. He was quiet, so that he wouldn't set off the older fae. He liked her name, though. My name is Diskko, He said for the fourth time that day. What brings you here? His eyes strayed back to her wounds. They looked gross. They would probably get infected. He looked towards the direction where Lonelykit had gone. Where was she with those herbs or whatever?

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[Ice]

^{Ice looked at Calanthe. He noticed how she looked cautious, he didn't even want to know why.'I'm Ice...'}[/color] He looked down at his paws to answer the rest of her question. 'The silver she-cat's name is-'[/color] Lonleykit cut off Ice in mid-sentence. 'I'm Lonleykit.'[/color] The silver cat picked back up the herbs. She walked over to where Diskko was. 'This will only sting a little bit...'[/color] Lonleykit chewed up the marigold carefully, then she gently set it on the tom cats wounds. Then she took the cobwebs and put it on the wounds. She turned away from the tom and took her spot by Ice. 'It's okay Ice.... you can relax now.'[/color] The femme said quietly under her breath so she knew only Ice could hear. Ice just ignored her comment, but he was able to relax for the first time since she left. Lonleykit waited for Calanthe to answer Diskko's question.[/sup]

[lonelylove :D]

d i s k k o.

foreboding!
obnixious!
deranged!

Diskko sat upright and waited as Lonelykit came and chewed up the marigold. He yowled as the marigold paste stung his wounds. Oww! But, as fast as the pain came, it went away. He sighed with relief while the little silver kit covered the paste with cobweb. He poked one curiously, and almost got the sticky film stuck to his paws. What good does the marigold and cobweb do? He asked Lonelykit.

[Ice]

^{Lonleykit's tail moved back an forth in irritation. Why can't Diskko not ask questions! Her green eyes looked at Diskko disappointedly. 'The Marigold stops any infection and the cobwebs help stop the bleeding.'}[/color] Ice watched in amazement as he heard Lonleykit say what the herbs do. 'How did you find out so much about herbs? I mean when you left the clan you were only a kit....'[/color][/sup]

[KURI. (happy birfday to me :D)]

Calanthe dipped her head, accepting the tom's words. Ah. She was usually very good at reading tones, but this time she slipped up. No matter, then. Diskko. An interesting name, she meowed. Ice, Diskko and... Calanthe looked curiously at the last cat, the one carrying herbs. It wasn't his looks that interested her; for a rogue or loner he was normal-looking in just about every way. It was his named that intregued her. Lonelykit, hm? So, you were born to a Clan? May I ask which one? she smiled, appearing friendly. Well, it wasn't that she was unfriendly, she was simply... cautious. It was important to know who your enemies were. She was always on the alert.

At Diskko's question, she twitched her ears. She had heared - oh, she didn't exactly remember where, but it was a long time ago that she had heard this - that Runningcloud had been named both deputy and medicine cat, although she resided as the former now. She both understood and didn't understand her daughtor's motives, true, being both deputy and medicine cat in one lifetime was a feat scarcely accomplished before her, but on the other paw she could have lead SerenityClan. Calanthe shook her head and blinked at Lonelykit. You know your way around herbs. I'm no longer surprised that you decend from the same place as me.

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[lonelylove :D]

d i s k k o.

foreboding!
obnixous!
deranged!

Diskko nodded slightly at Calanthe's words. Yes. I get that a lot. As the she-cat inquired Lonelykit about her abilities and her heritage, his mind driffed back to Jasminestar. Jasminestar.

He could feel a painful thumping in his chest. His heart was about to break free of his chest. Oh no, oh no! He clasped his front paws over his chest and began breathing. Just breath deep. Everything will be okay. But he would not listen to the lies in his head. Everything would not be okay. Jasminestar was dead! The pain felt fresh, as if it had just happened all over again. No, no, He whimpered. The scene washed over his eyes, and he could see her mangled body once more. Her tortoiseshell fur caked with her own blood. He hunched over once more, trying to hide his pain. Go away!

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[Ice]

^{Lonleykit's greens eyes watched the water in the stream. 'Yes I'm clan born.... I came from Moonclan.'}[/color] Ice winced as he watched Lonelykit's eyes narrow. 'I don't think talking about Lonleyki-'[/color] He stopped mid-sentence once more, but this time because of Lonleykit glaring at him. ' Yes I spent my time I was in the clan near the medicine cat den. What do you mean where you came from? What clan was it?'[/color] Lonleykit was all ways curious. Suddenly her gaze flickered over to where Diskko was. Neither wanted to ask what was wrong, they just both watched him.[/sup]

[[xoxo] shard. :)]

Apollo

[/font]

I learned the hard way
That they all _say the things you wanna hear
And my heavy heart sinks deep down under you
And your ^{twisted words,} Your help just _hurts
You're not what I thought you were[/center]

The greenest of green eyes peeked through the shrubbery. The dark brown tabby had been running low on cobwebs, and she often came to the loner lands to gather such things. But something stopped her today: Cats. Frail and weak like she was, Apollo wasn't about to go out into the open when there were multiple felines. She only did such a thing when one of the cats was injured or ill. In this case, one was injured, but the small she-cat seemed to be taking care of that.

But he still didn't seem recovered emotionally. Whatever happened must have scarred him inside and out. If he was afraid, he couldn't be too harmful. And then if that she-cat was helping him, she couldn't be too bad. The other tom just didn't seem evil, but the larger of the she-cats was a bit to guarded for her liking. Then again, that wasn't irregular in the rogue world. Everyone had to make sure they knew who they were dealing with, whether they were friend or foe.

Though Apollo was still wary, she crept silently from the bushes. A Twoleg sack-thing was between her jaws, gently dropping as she parted them. She quietly began to gather some cobwebs from between the twig-like branches of the shrubbery, packing them inside. The sack-thing proved to be a worthy tool, and she used it for whenever she went to gather herbs. Glancing back towards the crowd, it didn't seem like any of them noticed her. But as she reached for another cobweb, she broke a branch from the bushes. The brown tabby flinched as the crack sounded. It wasn't that loud, but when you're trying not to be noticed, a fly buzzing a tail-length from your head is loud. Apollo waited for the reaction of the others in the clearing, if any, hoping it wouldn't be attack.[/size][/blockquote]

[Ice]

^{Ice turned around to where he heard a branch snap. Silently he walked over to where a dark brown tabby was. 'Hello? May I ask what your doing?'}[/color] Lonleykit watched Ice walk away but she didn't follow. She knew that it was none of her business. She still kept her ears open o their conversation. Ice's blue eyes dropped to the cobwebs that were in the twolegged sack. One like he had seen when he was with Shelby.[/sup]