I hate my so-called father!!!

[Dansen[Mouse]]

Ok, heres from my D.A. account Journel:

MY STUPID, PIGHEADED, @#$% BAWEIRBAWEIFILWEAFHIUAWGEF, FATHER!!!

Ok, I've been wanting to shout that all morning.

So we are back early, why?

Ok, so everything was going great, right?

Right.

Then, this morning my mom caught my pig headed father looking at a porn site of his computer(yes, our campsite got WiFi)

So we left.

At first, she told me and the others he was looking at Match.com or something like that, then when it was just me and her she told me it was a porn site.

I want to kick him off one of the W.V. mountains right now!!!

Its worse then I thought!!

I stuck up for him Monday night when mom wouldn't talk to him, now he goes and looks at naked women!!!

@#$%# #@$ $%%@##$ @$@# @#$&* *****!!!!!!!!!!!

I hate him now!

And what worse?

Yes theres worse news,

My good for nothing brother whom I tell him everything stayed with him!!!

Now I'm alone in the house with now one to talk too!!

Ok, so just when I think things can't get worse? They do!!!

Alright, back when we were in W.V. my father applied for a job that pays five time the amount he gets right now.

I was really happy about it too and started thinking, 'hey with this money we can finally catch up on bills and all that crap.'

I even felt at peace about moving to W.V.!

I was sad about leaving Ohio or anything!

Now since dad pulled that stunt, mom has to come up with around $2000 to pay the bills!

We might even half to give up the cable and internet!!!

I hate him, I really do.

And I don't know what the heck were going to do.

Mom says that she might have a plan, but we well see what goes on.

I feel so helpless cause there is nothing I can do.

I'd love to do Commissions but no one would buy them anyway, and mom doesn't even know about D.A.

Plus THAT MAN took moms National City bank card and took $600 dollars out of the bank!

That was our grocery money!!!

I just wish he would... UGH!!!!!l

Ok, so that explains it all.

We might have to give up the internet and at the moment I don't have anytime to get on and I have no muse to rp.

Can a couple of people take over my characters until I return, please?

I have:

EclipseClan - Brackenpaw

MoonClan - Harmonykit

BrightClan - Berryleaf

SerenityClan - Mousepaw, Lightpaw, Brightclaw, & Lightningstorm

Loner - Night

There bios can be found in the link in my siggy.

If you wish to rp my character, just say so here, but read the bio and please try to stick to their personality as much as possible.

I don't want to find out that Brightclaw is pregnant when I come back XD

I'm out and will pop on later to see if anyone wil rp any of my characters.

~Mousey

[SHADE. :D]

Bye Mousage. =[
*hug*

Don't worry, I'll protect Brightclaw from any mysterious pregnancies. xD

[Spice..xx]

<sub>I hope things get better soon for you and your mum Mouseth *huggles*

If you would like, I will roleplay Mousepaw and Harmonykit for you? I liketh them the bestest ^^.</sub>

[x.Jolly.x]

<sup>Aww, Mousey! -big hug- I hope this all settles down for you. I feel SO bad for you!

I can roleplay Lightningstorm and Lightpaw if you want... I hope you're okay...</sup>

[Dansen[Mouse]]

Thanks guys, your all awesome, but I've suddenly got some mega muse and I'm back now.

Its nice to know I have caring friends here -huggles all-

[x.Jolly.x]

^{ok... I'm glad to see you've got muse! ;D -Huge mega All-time hugemongous huggle-}

[(aurora) of the problematique]

_{I was going to post saying that Locusters doesn't mind to wait for his mentor <33}

[FIREH!!]

_{I was just about to post here... It's great to see you're better mouseicle!!!!!!!!!!!}

[Dansen[Mouse]]

Thanks guy, but I'm depressed all over again.

Another thing from my D.A. Journal:

He called...

My father did.

For a while I kept a level tone, like I really didn't care and he asked me to let him talk to the others and I did.

Then I talked to him for a few...

He started to say some stuff and said he really loved me and all that.

He sounded like he really missed me and everyone, that he realized how important we were to him or something...

After I hung up I started crying, wrestling with all my emotions until I finally admitted to myself that deep down...

...I miss him too...

Inside I still feel the battle going on.

One side hates him,

the other misses him.

I don't know what to do any more, I feel so confused and some how hurt too.

I don't know what to do...

I'm not going to disappear this time, but anyone got any advice?