i am soooo so sorry. D:

[kee :]]

Seeing that Mouse and Jolly just quit makes this decision even harder... But school has been giving me hell, since it's the end of the trimester, and my friends have been giving me hell as well. These excuses for being so inactive are pretty bad, huh? :\ Yeahh...

I know you all are frustrated with me and whenever I get a high position I just quit. I seem to have a reputation for doing that and I'm so sorry... But I'm just going to have to quit. It will be better for EclipseClan to get a more active Deputy and I just don't have enough muse to post anymore.

I'm very very sorry and I love you all. <33

-Kee

P.S.

Seeing that post Shade made about her friendship issues wants me to make one last little request. Could I maybe have some advice? Here's the story...

Okay. Well these are my friends: Walker, Dejuanah, Mary Frances, Ellyn, Abbie, Sammy, and Sam. There are a couple other minor characters but anyway...

Walker is Abbie and Sammy's cousin and he used to date my very best friend in the world Dejuanah. He doesn't live in the same state I do, but somehow they were able to date for a few months. Their story for breaking up was a long one but D had some issues and she broke up with him. This really hurt Walker and he came to [believe it or not] ME! Well.. on IM. Through helping him to get over D, I became his friend and eventually I started to like him more than a friend, not knowing that my other best friend, Ellyn, also liked him.

So I'm skipping through the happy months of everyone being happy and friendly... la de daaaa... In these months, I started talking to one of Walker's friends, Sam, and we became good friends, too. I trusted him a lot and I told him that I liked Walker. He said he could help me out...

OKAY! Now we're at February! Walker and I have become super awesome friends and one day he tells me he likes someone from my school. I was very curious to find out and he wouldn't tell me... But when I did eventually find out that it was Ellyn, I was furious and hurt. Through my fury and pain, I told Walker that I had a crush on him. He was at Sam's house when I did this and he was pretty mad that Sam knew all about it... But anyway, so Walker tried to be really nice about letting me down but then Sam called me and told me it would all be alright. I was feeling like sh*t.

They called me back that same evening and Walker asked me out. I was extremely happy... It didn't last. I learned one thing through all of that and that is... Never date your best friend because it gets all weird and awkward and bleh. So that lasted for a week. I wasn't quite over Walker yet, since I'm really not that good with the whole healing thing... And you know what he does? He asks Ellyn out, not even a week after we had a "mutual agreement" as D likes to call it. Ellyn had told him that she liked him and then he asked her out. Sound like a familiar story?? It is exactly the same, except Walker actually LIKES Ellyn like that.

I was mad. I cannot tell you how angry I was. I was mad at Ellyn and Walker because neither one of them even told me about it when it actually happened and I was just mad that they would even do something like that to me. Ellyn knew I wasn't over Walker because I told her that I wasn't... And yet she goes and tells him that she likes him. Well I was mad. Thank God, I didn't see Ellyn at all that day and when I did talk to Walker later, I said some really really really mean things to him. But after a while.. I just got sad. Very sad.. Not only because my friends were jerks, but that I was so mean to them.

So the next day, I got up and went on IM. Guess who IMs me, apologizing for being such a jerk? Yep, Walker. I was with D that night before and she told me not to forgive him. Well, I did. He explained to me why he didn't tell me in the first place [because he didn't want to tell me, knowing that it would hurt my feelings. He was also stressed all day worrying that Sammy would tell me.] and he admitted to being a total jerk and he told me that I shouldn't be his friend. D and Abbie agreed with this while Sam and Sammy said I should be his friend. I was too angry to talk to Ellyn and Mary Frances was on Ellyn's side.

So I was stuck. I didn't know what to do. I thought about it that whole day and whole night... And I decided that I should be his friend. D was the only one to really disapprove to this idea because of the amount that he has hurt me in the past. For the past almost two weeks, I have been talking to him non-stop on the phone, webcam, IM... Anyway we can. It's been really awesome being really good friends with him and it's almost like he's my brother or something. D doesn't want me to be his friend at all and she tells me that if i stay his friend, I may not be able to be her friend because she can't deal with me getting hurt again. We are so close that our emotions kind of bounce off each other.. And when I get really really upset, so does she. She doesn't want me to have to go through that pain anymore because she seems to know that Walker will hurt me again. Walker says that he won't and he really never has done it intentionally...

-sigh- It's like I have to choose between my two best friends and I just want to be friends with both.. Sorry for spilling my problems to you, but I don't know what to do.

[SHADE. :D]

First of all, I'm really sorry that your leaving. ): We'll miss you.

And about your problem... It's a tough one. I think that Walker must have been pretty sorry to make such an effort at being your friend again, and if you're happy being his friend, then that should be alright. I can understand why D is upset about it, but she's supposed to be your closest friend, right? So she shouldn't try and make you choose - it isn't fair. If she was in your shoes, what would she do? Would you make her choose?

The way I see it, if D is your closest friend she should accept your choices, even if she thinks there the wrong one's. Friends aren't there to say I-told-you-so, are they?

Sorry if I sounded at all harsh there. ^^' And I hope that helped a little.

[idk my bff brindle]

I'm gonna miss you -flailflail-

LIKE, A LOT. A LOT A LOT A LOT.
D:

As for your Walker thing, I say yep, be friendw with him (: He sounds like a pretty good guy underneath his mistakes, and everyone makes them -shrug-
If D can't accept that, that's her problem. She needs to understand your choices and accept them.

<3 brindlerz~