Post by sorrowfrost on Aug 19, 2008 11:02:13 GMT -5
There's few of you who actually know me, so this is more for those of you who dont. I know a few of you could read through this and know exactly what im referring to when I say some things. Some things may confuse others, im not quite sure about how good I am with clairty. So to start it off, my name? Well as much as I hate my name with a deep passion, its Paige. Not sure why I hate my name so much, but I do. Lucky for me, I live in Ontario, Canada. No...we dont live in igloo's, but whatever. I actually find it quite dull here, and there's numerous places that I would rather live, but I dont know if I could ever actually leave. Was born May 30th, 1994 so as you can tell, im fourteen at the moment (yay...? I think...?).
Okay, fears? I think one of my number one fear's has to be belts. Funny huh? Not exactly, so as a long story shortened to one word; abuse. Moving on, I also have fears of drowning, death, my father, crowds, sleeping, high speeds and the dark(yeah, weird). Only problem is I cant sleep unless its dark so you can see how thats sort of difficult. Actually, my abnormal sleep patterns are the reason I sleep about four or five hours a night on average due to my high frequency of nightmares. Either way, its these nightmares that cause my major fear of sleeping, so I tend to sleep only as much as I need and thats about it, but there's rare occasions I can sleep dreamlessly and for some nine hours, it all depends on the circumstances.
Sports...well those have become pretty limited due to injuries but my only current sports are skating and horseback riding, lovely eh? Have done soccer, basketball, volleyball and tennis in the past but they didn't really last very long due to lack of interest or merely because the injuries I got keeps me from continuing them. I also used to do the whole track and field scene and excelled in 100m, long jump and triple jump but I got shinsplints and have to give that up for a while. Healing process is actually going well and im allowed to go for jogs a couple nights a week so im working back to my track abilities anyways, will keep my mom happy if I can, she tends to...push me to my limits...not always bad I guess but rather annoying.
Cant say too much about my family life because that could go on for ages, but im not very close to my mom or dad. I actually have a silent protest to my dads engagement but I would never openly tell him not to marry his fiancee, im not that mean (I just dont like her or her kids...) so its more of a suffer through type thing, if it makes him happy then why should I mess it up. The engagement sort of tore us apart but that was years and years ago so you get used to having basically no father. Cant say im all that clsoe with my mom either, even though shes at work basically all the time, put us in a room and the fur will usually start flying. Since shes always gone, and my dad was living two hours away...guess who was left to raise my sister? Me. Yupp, so luckily I have a rather strong bond with my younger sister. She's a handful due to ADHD and ect ect but I would never trade her for the world.
When it comes to school, I slack off. Im pulling straight A's and recently graduated with honors but once Summer end's i'll be around less. See my Mom is all mad because I got an 83 average and its not enough for university so she says I have to get atleast an 87 average or something like that or im grounded off the computer. Favourite subjects are English, French, History and Geography. I actually adore Egyptian history and it used to be a dream of mine to become an Egyptologist but at the moment im more leaning towards a child lawyer (I have my reasons, few of you know what they are and a couple can probably guess) so yeah, theres my education and career options at glance. My ambition used to be that of a phychiatrist but after the experiences with mine im really starting to dislike them...greatly. After my 'friend' called me suicidal I have to go back for therapy because I dont think they really believe im not suicidal (just depressed, but thats just how I am) so yeah, should be fun and im sorry in advance if I snap on anyone, sessions with him make me very irritated.
Guess thats all...not going to write everything since that would take a long time. Clearly my interests revolve around writing, reading and the likes but thats hardly interesting (but no more so than anything else so far). Surprised if anyone actually reads to this point xD
Okay, fears? I think one of my number one fear's has to be belts. Funny huh? Not exactly, so as a long story shortened to one word; abuse. Moving on, I also have fears of drowning, death, my father, crowds, sleeping, high speeds and the dark(yeah, weird). Only problem is I cant sleep unless its dark so you can see how thats sort of difficult. Actually, my abnormal sleep patterns are the reason I sleep about four or five hours a night on average due to my high frequency of nightmares. Either way, its these nightmares that cause my major fear of sleeping, so I tend to sleep only as much as I need and thats about it, but there's rare occasions I can sleep dreamlessly and for some nine hours, it all depends on the circumstances.
Sports...well those have become pretty limited due to injuries but my only current sports are skating and horseback riding, lovely eh? Have done soccer, basketball, volleyball and tennis in the past but they didn't really last very long due to lack of interest or merely because the injuries I got keeps me from continuing them. I also used to do the whole track and field scene and excelled in 100m, long jump and triple jump but I got shinsplints and have to give that up for a while. Healing process is actually going well and im allowed to go for jogs a couple nights a week so im working back to my track abilities anyways, will keep my mom happy if I can, she tends to...push me to my limits...not always bad I guess but rather annoying.
Cant say too much about my family life because that could go on for ages, but im not very close to my mom or dad. I actually have a silent protest to my dads engagement but I would never openly tell him not to marry his fiancee, im not that mean (I just dont like her or her kids...) so its more of a suffer through type thing, if it makes him happy then why should I mess it up. The engagement sort of tore us apart but that was years and years ago so you get used to having basically no father. Cant say im all that clsoe with my mom either, even though shes at work basically all the time, put us in a room and the fur will usually start flying. Since shes always gone, and my dad was living two hours away...guess who was left to raise my sister? Me. Yupp, so luckily I have a rather strong bond with my younger sister. She's a handful due to ADHD and ect ect but I would never trade her for the world.
When it comes to school, I slack off. Im pulling straight A's and recently graduated with honors but once Summer end's i'll be around less. See my Mom is all mad because I got an 83 average and its not enough for university so she says I have to get atleast an 87 average or something like that or im grounded off the computer. Favourite subjects are English, French, History and Geography. I actually adore Egyptian history and it used to be a dream of mine to become an Egyptologist but at the moment im more leaning towards a child lawyer (I have my reasons, few of you know what they are and a couple can probably guess) so yeah, theres my education and career options at glance. My ambition used to be that of a phychiatrist but after the experiences with mine im really starting to dislike them...greatly. After my 'friend' called me suicidal I have to go back for therapy because I dont think they really believe im not suicidal (just depressed, but thats just how I am) so yeah, should be fun and im sorry in advance if I snap on anyone, sessions with him make me very irritated.
Guess thats all...not going to write everything since that would take a long time. Clearly my interests revolve around writing, reading and the likes but thats hardly interesting (but no more so than anything else so far). Surprised if anyone actually reads to this point xD
